Category Archives: Vacation

“Why I hate naps” and other babble.

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Today is my last day of “stay-cation”.  It’s been fun, it really has.  I got to spend time by myself and face some of my Crohns demons, I got to go thrifting and out for coffee.  I spent some good time with my daughter and boyfriend, and I spent time doing whatever I wanted.  Today is the last day, and what did I do?  Take a 2 hour nap.

Naps are heavenly.  If you don’t sleep well the night before, a nap may seem better than a whiskey sour after a long week of bullshit at the office.  People like to nap, curling up on a chilly afternoon and snoozing the hours away.  Hell, babies nap.  Old people nap.  Your 22 year old neighbor naps*.

*Sleeps until noon, wakes up, eats cocoa crispies, goes back to sleep.

I napped today.

And I hate naps.

I feel like with in those two hours, I missed the entire day.  Somehow, in those two hours, all of the plans I didn’t have will never get done, like those two hours were filled with things that I had been wanting to do for a millenia.

2 hours.

I fell asleep reading a book I’ve fallen in love with.  (The Physick Book of Deliverance Dane by: Katherine Howe)  Sounds perfect right?  No.  I could’ve done, um, I could’ve done, something!!

I could’ve worked more on my writing, or my knitting.  There’s that soup that’s been simmering in the crock pot, or hell, there are all of the dishes that are creating a new life form in my sink… you know those dishes I’m still not going to do because, meh.  I can do them in an hour before I pick up Ryan.

Stupid nap.  Fucked up my mojo for the day.  Now there’s only a couple hours of daylight left, even though we’re not going outside.  I’d rather stay inside with my cup of coffee, Noodle with her playdoh kit.  (There is playdoh stuck in places in this house I didn’t know playdoh could go.)

So that’s it.  I napped.  Now I’m going to go catch up on all the things I missed in those precious two hours.  Damned nap.

Frustration and Coffee

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For some reason I’m really agitated today.  I’m not even sure why, there’s nothing I can pinpoint.  I’m just generally anxious and riled up, even though my “vacation” begins tonight.  I feel like I should be doing something, but I have no idea what.  There’s nothing that immediately needs my attention.  I don’t know.

It might just be the fall season.  Usually around Autumn I feel melancholy and I start getting the itch to make big changes.  Except for this year, I haven’t decided on any big changes.  I was thinking of school, but because of current student debt, it’ll have to wait.  Other than that?  I don’t know.  There’s no real changes I want to make to the house until the spring, there’s nothing major with my family.  I don’t know.

Ah well.

So it’s my vacation, or rather “stay-cation”.  I took some time off of work to save what’s left of my mental health.  I’m off of work until Tuesday morning.  I ended up squeezing in some medical crap, but for the most part, the next 5 days are going to be about taking care of me.  Tomorrow morning, I have my remicade infusion, but will be out of there around noon.  Friday, I have my surgical consult, but that shouldn’t take long at all.  Other than that, there’s no plans.

I’m excited, Noodle has school Thursday and Friday and then a 3 day weekend.  So Thursday and Friday are days to myself.  Saturday and Monday, Ryan is working, so it’s Noodle-Mama time.  Sunday?  Family Day.  Maybe I’ll take a tour through the thrift stores, I need winter clothes.  Maybe the forest preserve for writing and music? Maybe coffee with my girlfriends?  Maybe a walk downtown?  Who knows.  Either way, it’ll be nice.

Obviously, from my level of un-called for anxiety, I need this break.

It’s been a loooong road.

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I’ve been absent lately from the internet world.  The real world has been moving almost too fast for me to keep up, so I’ve been lacking in the posts as well as on Facebook and Twitter.  I’ve been even worse off at reading other people’s blogs, for which I sincerely apologize.  Life has been good though, just busy, as in super insane busy.  Honestly though, I like it when life is busy, it keeps me pushing forward and striving to meet new goals.  As always, the one thing that doesn’t change, I manage life’s problems and achieve my goals quicker if I have too much on my plate at once.  I don’t think that’ll ever change, some call it ADHD, some call it over-achieving… I call it Fuck-You-Life-I-Win.

So my little Buddha Butt had her birthday come and go, and let me tell you did this little girl get spoiled.  It looked (looks) like Hello Kitty puked in my house.  From lunchboxes to barrettes to stickers to outfits.  Helllllo Kitty.  Good Lord.  She got a new Easel from Beckie and her daughter Izzy, which she can now use with all her new art supplies (thanks Beck!).  And of course she got a new swim suit for our trip to the lake house… and got a kick out of wearing her life preserver.

<3

The lake house was a welcome vacation, granted we only went for 3 days this time, and we’ll be going back a lot this summer, it was just needed.  3 days with my family made it all worth while.  I was getting a little overwhelmed with work, bills, and just general adult crap, so I enjoyed it.  I enjoyed spending time with my Dad even more.  I’m glad he finally has a piece of paradise, after all these years, he deserves it.  Seeing him happy, even if his happiness was chasing us on a jetski and laughing when I was thrown off, makes me happy.

Things with the house are really coming together.  We’ve got everything unpacked and organized to our liking.  Both kid’s rooms are set up and our room is almost done too.  Ryan has been working like crazy (when he’s not at actual work) on the yard and it’s looking really nice.  I’ve always been an outside-person, I’d much rather sit in my yard than inside the house.  Now?  I can look at a well-manicured lawn complete with all of my flowers (both old that he resurrected and new plants) and relax.  The house is feeling more like a home every day, especially since I’ve been filling it with people I love.

Life is good, busy but good.  My one goal though?  Work on my writing more, I’ve been writing like crazy in my physical journal, but I want to get on this blog better.  Especially at the current politics rolling around [Insert Evil Cackle Here].  Plus, now that evenings are calming down, I want to read more.  So I’ll be around you guys.  I’m back. :)