End of Summer Cold

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I am absolutely exhausted. I’m curled up on the couch with my favorite blanket and pillow with my pup curled up next to me. Made some coffee and lit a candle, trying to create a soothing environment. Why? I feel like hammered shit.

About a week ago, my nose was stuffed up, but it seemed to pass pretty quickly. Noodle got sick a day or so after, and every time that kid gets a cold, it moves into her chest. So we ended up at the ER for a breathing treatment and inhaler. While sitting there, sniffling myself, I considered myself lucky, all I got was a sniffle. So of course, once the kiddo got her inhaler, she bounced back with a cough, and I started sneezing.

I am now a cranky mess of a walking headache with a cough and congestion. End of Summer colds are the worst. The temperature is finally cooler, it’s time to harvest the garden, and enjoy being outside… and I’m fucking sick.

So I’m literally just here to bitch, because I don’t feel good and because I don’t have the wonderfully robust immune system that my kid does.

Someone make me soup and spike it with Nyquil.

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Feeling Disillusioned: USA Edition

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“I think any Jewish people that vote for a Democrat, I think it shows either a total lack of knowledge or great disloyalty.” – President Trump

So yesterday, Trumps comments regarding Jewish Democrats went viral throughout every social media platform I take part in. I couldn’t help to think about how Hitler and his party’s propaganda machine started out by dehumanizing Jews and accusing them of not being loyal to the state.

However, Trump and his administration actively dehumanize people every day, and whenever they’re not writing executive orders to take away the rights of every day people, Trump is parroting comments straight out of Goebbels handbook. It’s starting to become so consistent, so repetitive, that his comments and actions are doing exactly what they’re supposed to. Normalizing his behavior.

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Then he tweets out this nonsense someone said about him. Our president thought it was appropriate that he tweet out that he was “like the second coming of God” and that he’s like the “King of Israel”. Naturally “King of the Jews” and “King of Israel” started trending. I read this via a couple of Rabbis who tweeted out their horror regarding the above tweet. All of a sudden my coffee didn’t taste as good as it had.

After 3 mass shootings in the last month and change, weekly arrests of white supremacists planning more mass shootings, and watching my fellow citizens turn on immigrants, Jews, Black people and anyone who doesn’t agree with them just… has me disillusioned. Watching people demean and dehumanize anti-fascist counter protesters to white supremacist groups, calling them terrorists and then literally getting mad when they defend themselves and their communities against violence.. it just makes me sick.

When I was a little girl, in my little bubble of my lower middle class community, I was taught about a different America. I was taught that America was free. I was taught that America fought against fascism, racism, and hatred. I was taught by everyone from my teachers to my church, that America was good! That people traveled from around the world to live here, free from persecution and violence, to receive an education and live in peace to practice their religion of choice and live the life they wanted to lead. I was taught that America was a melting pot, where all races were welcome, and that we could only strive to be better despite our past abuses. I believed it.

It was a lie.

Every day it’s something new. Some new bill is introduced to take away my healthcare. Democrats are laughed at for wanting to help people with student debt. Nazis are marching on our towns, meanwhile the Right keeps parroting that there aren’t really Nazis in America, and that we have to respect their opinions despite those opinions being that a large amount of use shouldn’t exist much less live on American soil. Our president publicly mocks his opponents, which results in death threats. He will proclaim the media to be the “Enemy of the State” almost weekly. We’re detaining undocumented immigrants, while the Trump administration tries to make it indefinitely, and then refusing them vaccinations; essentially insuring more deaths this flu season.

Through all of this, the vast majority of Americans don’t care. Or worse, they support all of these atrocious actions, if not take part in it themselves. America hasn’t learned from the past, nor has it learned from the History books. We’re enabling all of this, and frankly, I’m ashamed.

That doesn’t mean that I’ll give up by any means. That doesn’t mean that any of us who consider this country our home, those of us who have good in our hearts should give up. I just needed to get this off of my chest, and I know a lot of you are feeling the same. We have to do better, before it’s too late.

 

Coffee & Alone Time

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So the short kid started 7th grade today. I know it sounds super cliche, but I swear, she was just a toddler who was working on potty training. Now she’s an angsty preteen in middle school. The old adage of “You’ll blink and they’ll be grown up” is really true.

I’m definitely proud of how far she has come, and what she’s accomplished thus far. I know she’s going to grow up as a intelligent, down to earth woman. In the meantime, I hope she doesn’t flunk out of Honors Math.. as it was damn close last time. Haha.

As odd as it is to have everyone out of the house, I am enjoying it. I can count on one hand how many times I’ve had alone time since the beginning of summer.. and still have fingers left over. It was a very, very hectic summer, and to be frank, I’m glad it’s over. Just having the house to myself, being able to tackle the chores and start dinner is glorious.

Just attempting to get back into the normal flow of things, now that life has settled down a bit. The last few months just really wore me down. We had a lot of issues with Jon’s daughter, and without getting into it too much, she needs very intensive long term therapy before she can come back to visit. Now that that seems to be underway, it’s time for me to focus on my own daughter and my own life.

One thing I’ve learned, or rather re-learned this summer, is that when you are trying to take care of everyone else, you cannot neglect yourself. It becomes all to easy to just throw yourself into holding your family or friends together, that you just forget about you. It’s easy to brush off “me-time” with the excuse that you’ll always have time later. It’s easy to put off activities and hobbies that you enjoy because it’s just too hectic.. or worse, it seems wrong when everything else seems to be going downhill. I’m definitely guilty of it, and especially so this last summer. Now it’s time to get back to my life and the rest of my family.

Other than all of that, things are pretty okay in my world. Just paying attention to the shit show that is our political climate in the United States, and trying to enjoy the rest of the warm weather for the year. Our garden didn’t fair too well this year, so I’m trying to salvage what I can out of it, plan out how to prep it this fall, and what to plant next year. I’m going to add fertilizer & soil this fall and make sure it’s all weeded, and hopefully with a different layout next year, it’ll do better. I hope. Planning on laying some grass seed around our new fire pit and in the front yard this fall too, trying to get grass to grow in the shady areas is super difficult for me.

So that’s it for now. I figured I’d do an update post as I haven’t had much of a chance lately, and am also stuck with writer’s block again. Hope it lets up soon. Happy August y’all.

Shitting on Baltimore & the Irony in it

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So, in typical fashion of this current administration, immediately after telling US congresswomen to leave if they’re going to criticize the USA, our president is SHITTING on the USA. For two days now.

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It’s like he was so close to becoming self-aware, and then just squatted, shat, and then ate his own shit. He literally just told US Congresswomen to leave this country because they dared to work on education, poverty, and our general rights, then he gets on Twitter and shits all over Cummings and Baltimore. Shouldn’t he just leave?

The most ironic thing about all of this, isn’t that he’s telling a Congressman that his district isn’t clean, or that he has no idea about what a congressman, governor, or mayor do, it’s that his tweets and the poverty he’s bitching about is essentially a rail against capitalism. That’s the tasty bit. It’s not that Cummings doesn’t do enough for his district, or that he should spend more time there (spoiler: he does spend a fuck ton of time there), it’s that this is what capitalism creates. 

More so, has he SEEN the homeless population in say, New York? DC? Every major city? Has he visited any of the rural towns where people live in squalor? Has he looked into the apartment complexes that his son in law, Jared Kushner, owns? You know, the ones that are complaining about it being unsafe, unsanitary, and being run by a slum lord? Has he never once, in his ultra-rich-gold-toilet-having life opened his eyes and LOOKED at the world from an unbiased stand point and tried to do something to HELP Americans?

He’s so hyper-focused on the border, on keeping people out, that the only things he has time for after that is cutting healthcare for those same districts he’s bitching about. Or gutting medicare for the generation that he hopes votes for him. Or making sure that the entire lower class is demonized just for existing.

Oh. I can’t forget Twitter. He will reschedule a day for his “executive time” so he can watch Fox News and tweet in their echo chamber.

It’s shit like this that just gives me a headache. I can’t stand utter hypocrisy, and I can’t stand willingly uneducated people. I’m so tired of rich assholes telling the working-class and people stuck in poverty how much we suck, or how shitty our towns are. I’m beyond tired of the rich ruining us, and then pointing the finger elsewhere.

At risk of ending up on some “domestic terror list” for other reasons than being anti-fascist, I hope that Trump strokes out squeezing out a turd on his golden toilets.

 

Eat the Rich.

 

 

“Don’t like this country? Leave!” – An Anti-American Statement

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It’s almost as if this country is indeed sowing it’s own destruction. As time continues, more and more people are picking up “President” Trump’s statements telling Americans, that if they don’t like what’s going on in the United States, that they should leave. You can see it all over the news, social media and even in real life.

The problem with that, beyond the racist undertones, is that telling people who are not happy with what their government is doing, to just get the hell out is Anti-American. A key part of being American is that we stand up for what we believe is right. Americans don’t just move when shit isn’t going the way we want it to, we stand up and fight. The American people saw a problem with the direction the US is heading, and decided that hey, let’s change that. They elected several new congressmen and women, as is their duty as citizens. Americans have taken to the streets to protest everything from the restrictions placed on women’s healthcare to the “not-concentration camps”, because yet again, Protest is Patriotism. Americans as a whole, have not only the right, but the duty to stay and work on their country and government.

So when citizens do exactly that, when they state that something in our country isn’t acceptable, when they vote people in that work for things they agree with, when they decry fucking human rights abuses, they get told to leave. When an American does something that is their constitutionally given right, not to mention their duty, they’re told “If you don’t like it, go back to where you came from”. (Then of course, insert racist undertones.) Literally telling an American to get out of their own country isn’t only fascistic, it’s not un-American, it’s Anti-American. 

It’s also important to point out, for the sake of outing hypocrisy did everyone block out Obama’s entire administration? You know, where the Republicans, Tea Partiers, and Extreme Right lost their collective shit for 8 years straight? You know, where they held the birther movement, claimed democrats were ruining the country because muslims, burned and hung effigies of our President? If they didn’t like it, they should have just left. Fucking hypocrites. They continuously shit on the president, his family, and the democrats left in congress for 8 FUCKING YEARS.. yet when we shit on Trump for acting like a fascist, we get told to leave.

Fuck off with that shit.

Just like many others, I’m about fed up with the Trump Supporters consistent hate rhetoric and blatant, unapologetic hypocrisy. I guess this is more a sheer rant, because I’m tired of their shit. I’m tired of the racism, I’m tired of the sexism, I’m tired of the homophobia, I’m tired of kids in cages, I’m tired of American kids starving because they cut food stamps. I’m tired of the GOD DAMNED President continuing to spew racially charged propaganda that the damned nazis are just eating up.

Guess what MAGA cunts, none of us are going ANYWHERE. We’re done with your Anti-American bullshit. I’M DONE WITH THE BULLSHIT. 

We’re all fucking Americans, we’re here to fight for our country, and we’re not going to give up. 

Chances are, you’re an Anti-Fascist.

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Never in a thousand years did I think I would hear people demonizing Anti-Fascists. From racists with tiki torches all the way to politicians, it’s been one giant smear campaign, especially since the Fuhrer started his campaign. Hell, Senator Ted Cruz sacked up and submitted a bill decrying Anti-Fascists as a terrorist group.. despite far-right groups such as the KKK not being deemed the same.

The sheer absurdity of it is astounding. Depending on your source, white supremacists murdered 40 (The Independent) to 50 (ADL) people in 2018. Guess how many murders Anti-Fascists committed? ZERO. Hell, a large amount of the mass shootings here and around the world, a vast majority of them had links to far-right groups. Yet, here come Americans, afraid of people who fight against racism, fascism and homophobia.

The funniest part about all of this, is that Antifa isn’t a giant group. We don’t have decoder rings or membership patches, there’s no uniform, and there are broad politics & belief systems across the board. There isn’t a Tuesday night pizza night, and there isn’t a Friday Night raffle for “Left-Wing-Extremists” only. Why? Because this country’s default position used to be Anti-Fascist.

Hell, unless you ARE looking for a decoder ring, you might already be one of the scary Antifa! Do you yell at your friends when they make racist comments or jokes while hanging out? You’re Antifa. Do you help out your community or donate your time regardless of who receives the benefits? Yup, Antifa. Do you get disgusted when you see a swastika carved into a bathroom stall? Also Antifa. Do you try and peel off or cover up white power stickers when you see them? Still Antifa. Do you believe that literal nazis walking down the street chanting “Jews will not replace us!” is wrong? Antifa. Do you write, draw images, design stickers that denounce racism, homophobia and fascism? Antifa. Have you given the finger to a racist asshole in the general public? Antifa. Have you, or would you punch, pour a milkshake on, or throw trash at a nazi? Antifa.

That’s the danger of demonizing the Anti-Fascist movement. You’re not just demonizing the people who dress in black with a bandana over their face, you’re also demonizing the school teacher that teaches kids that all races, sexes, and orientations are equal. You’re not just putting down a person who dumped a milkshake on a fash supporter, you’re also demonizing a teenager who tells their racist classmate to shut the fuck up. You’re not just shitting on the person who punched Richard Spencer, an admitted White Nationalist, in the face, you’re also demonizing your neighbor down the street who is appalled at the not-concentration-camp conditions at the border.

Sure, if you disagree with dousing a nazi in silly string, or punching a fascist, no one is making you. However, in our country, up until recently, we de-platform fascists. That ranges from peeling the swazi sticker off of a stop sign, to marching in pride events to protect pride goers from the Nazis that seem to swarm to them. That even includes reporting a fascist on Twitter or Facebook, or giving one the finger.

Americans are basically getting mad at their own communities for fighting back against fascists. Why get mad when a community organizes a small group of people to counter-protest people waiving the Nazi Flag? Why get mad when a community gets together are chases the KKK out? You don’t like the fact that someone might get punched? Well, we should probably talk to all of the WW2 vets and their families, since they fought an entire war based on “The Only Good Nazi is a Dead Nazi”.

Fascists, White Nationalists, Nazis, whatever you want to call them, MURDER people and destroy communities and countries.. yet our country, our government wants to notate anyone who may fall under the Anti-Fascist stroke as a terrorist? Wake the hell up. If we could STOP voting Nazis into office and start denouncing racism when we see or hear it, we wouldn’t even be in this predicament.

In the meantime, before you shit on Anti-Fascism.. realize that that’s how all Americans SHOULD be. Think about what Anti-Anti-Fascism is.

 

Spoiler: It’s Fascism.

 

Ilhan Omar: The Embodiment of the American Dream

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The American Dream

I remember sitting in history class as a freshmen in High School, listening to my teacher drone on and on and on about how people traveled thousands of miles, even in horrific conditions to come to the United States. He explained that it’s the quest for the so-called American Dream, that not just citizens have it, but immigrants too.

People travel here, immigrate here, both legally and “illegally” to have a shot at the American Dream. I’ve posted the definition above, but let me tell you what the American Dream meant to me and my family, and many other families out there.

Growing up, my Dad’s dream was always that us kids would be better of than he was. He didn’t go to college, he worked as a car mechanic (and then eventually a tech for another company) and he wanted us to be BETTER than him. So growing up for me, was about bettering myself, going further than my parents or any other ancestor with the base that they had built for me.

Now that I’m a parent, it’s the same. My version of the American dream is that I want my daughter to do better than I have. I want her to work hard, and make a wonderful life for herself with the base that I’ve built for her. The never ending American Dream, is to work hard, achieve more and to set the footing for the next generation. Why? Because we’re lucky to live in a country where that is (was?) possible.

Now I’m sure that you’ve heard about Trump’s tweets and comments regarding “The Squad”. If you haven’t, here you go, you get to suffer with the rest of us.
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So there is a lot of bullshit to unpack with those tweets. First, 3 out of 4 of those congresswomen were born in the United States. The 4th, immigrated here and became a citizen. (So maybe he’s right in the first tweet about our government.)

Secondly, does he really think Congress is just there to eat his ass? They’re there to run our government. That’s literally their job. More importantly, it is not illegal, shameful or wrong to criticize your government. It’s pretty much how this whole country came about in the first place.

Last, can we just go ahead and point out that ALL 4 of the congresswomen are people of color. Telling people of color to go back where they came from is inherently racist in the USA. It’s something that any minority group has had to deal with their whole entire existence. It’s absolute horse shit, since this country was literally founded by immigrants and then built on the backs of said immigrants and slave labor.

Anyway. Trump had another Nuremberg rally last night. During which, his cult-like supporters started chanting “Send her back”. (It really is telling that all of their hate filled chants are only 3 words long.) An entire demographic (I’ll let you guess which one) were chanting to send a literal American Citizen and Congresswoman, Ilhan Omar, back to where she came from.

Since then, social media has been flooded with anti-immigrant and general racist garbage from the Republicans. Including one, which I will not share here because it’s pretty graphic, in which a woman in a Niqab was hung from a crane. With the hashtag #IStandWithThePresident.

I am appalled. I am completely disgusted with how our President acted, and how my fellow Americans are currently acting. It’s fucking sick. However, it got me thinking about Congresswoman Omar. I did a tiny bit of digging, and confirmed what I already believed.

She is literally the embodiment of the American Dream.

She was born in Somalia in 1982. Her mother died when she was only 2 years old and she came from a family of educators. As some of you know, her and her family fled Somalia during the war and spent about 4 years in a refugee camp.

They made it to New York in 1992, and then moved to Virginia and then finally to Minneapolis. Her family was pretty working-class, but she was raised with a very strong respect for Democracy. She used to interpret for her grandfather at caucus meetings.

She finally was awarded her citizenship in 2000 (7 years before Melania Trump by the way) but had a rough time before and after. She was consistently bullied for her culture, more specifically her hijab. It ranged from boys putting gum on it, to literally pushing her down the stairs and assaulting her.

She persisted.

She went on to get a Bachelors in Political Science and International Studies in 2011, and held many jobs in politics in the mean time. During one job as a Senior Policy Aid for Andrew Johnson, she was attacked, yet again, by 5 people and injured.

She still persisted.

She ran for and was elected for the Minnesota House and took office in 2017. During which time, she amazingly co-authored 266 bills between 2017-2018. Shortly after that she was elected to Congress. She is the first woman of color to serve from Minnesota, and the first Somali-American ever. She was also one of two of the first Muslim women to be elected.

She has literally busted her ass, and embodied the American Dream. She is literally what Republicans say they want opposed to “illegal immigrants”. They want someone to do it through the right channels, and contribute to society… except for they still dislike her. It doesn’t even matter to them, that her American Dream is to serve the American People!

To think, Republicans everywhere are calling for her deportation, or telling her to go back where she came from as if she’s not American enough somehow. Hell, she CO-SPONSORED the 9/11 Victims Compensation bill, you know. The bill that helps take care of victims and first responders that were effected that day? You know, the same exact bill that the Republicans blocked. (Rand Paul – the guy who literally was the 51st vote on the huge tax cuts for corporations and the wealthy, is now complaining that we don’t have the money to take care of our national heros. Fuck you Rand.)

It’s fucking ridiculous. She’s being touted as Anti-American, an Anti-Semite (because she criticized Israel’s government and their funding our politicians – for the record.. fuck Israel. You can criticize a government, you SHOULD criticize a government. It’s criticizing entire races/religions that gets you the boot), and a whole bunch of other shit, when she has done more for this country than the vast majority of us.

My point is, is she has literally embodied the American Dream. She busts her ass for herself, her family and for America, and Republicans are shitting on her (and the other 3 congresswomen).

It’s because they do their jobs and criticize and try to fix our country, and because they’re women of color. It’s both. I haven’t seen anyone tell Bernie Sanders to go back to where he came from, he has almost the same view points as all these women, and yet? Nothing. So yeah.

As of this point in time, the Republican Party that we all knew is dead. Our country is headed down a downward spiral, and people are openly shitting on (and physically threatening) the only people who seem to give a damn.

I don’t even know what to say anymore. It’s like watching a train-wreck. You can’t look away.

Except for it’s our country’s fall.