Is this connection all I have? Burnt out like my mind and black like my heart.
This funk I’m in is kicking my ass. I’m not sure how to get myself out of it. It’s usually not this hard, usually a few trips dancing cures it. Nope. Not this time. Seasonal Depression or the real deal? How do I get up? I feel numb.
I’m not quite sure what’s wrong. I mean, there’s the obvious day to day stress, but I can usually truck through that. I’m just lacking motivation. I’m just lacking emotion. I’m just buried beneath everything. Good god. It’s not even noon and I could use a drink.
It’s not like I don’t have good times, but more like I’m going manic every so often. It’s the oddest feeling. Higher than Cocaine Highs, and Lower than Graves Lows.
I need to run far way. I can’t go back to that place.
I need sunshine.