Put me first.


“I never thought about no future, it’s just a roll of the dice”

So I have a new motto per say.  I need to start putting myself before other people.  I’m getting infamous for helping people out and that is really starting to get on my nerves.  Like being in a choke hold, I feel overwhelmed and obligated.

I have a hard time saying no to people.  I have a hard time realizing that their problems are theirs, that while I can help out, I don’t have to.  (Especially if I’m not getting paid to do so haha).  That while it sucks that other people are having problems, so am I and that I need to take care of my own shit first.

I guess it’s a personality flaw.  I make it seem so apparent that I don’t give a fuck, then dive head first into someone else’s problem, attempting to help out.  I’m starting to think that maybe I should just not give a fuck.  Did that make sense?

So other than that life is good, it took me a little while to realize this, and I do need to remind myself time and time again.  I have a few close and good friends and that’s all I need.  I’m pushing forward with my business, and I’m putting time into family and school.  Work can still choke on a fat one, but I’m grateful for my job.  I just need to get my head out of the sand and correct the negative things in my life.

Here’s to the future bitches!


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