“I never thought about no future, it’s just a roll of the dice”
So I have a new motto per say. I need to start putting myself before other people. I’m getting infamous for helping people out and that is really starting to get on my nerves. Like being in a choke hold, I feel overwhelmed and obligated.
I have a hard time saying no to people. I have a hard time realizing that their problems are theirs, that while I can help out, I don’t have to. (Especially if I’m not getting paid to do so haha). That while it sucks that other people are having problems, so am I and that I need to take care of my own shit first.
I guess it’s a personality flaw. I make it seem so apparent that I don’t give a fuck, then dive head first into someone else’s problem, attempting to help out. I’m starting to think that maybe I should just not give a fuck. Did that make sense?
So other than that life is good, it took me a little while to realize this, and I do need to remind myself time and time again. I have a few close and good friends and that’s all I need. I’m pushing forward with my business, and I’m putting time into family and school. Work can still choke on a fat one, but I’m grateful for my job. I just need to get my head out of the sand and correct the negative things in my life.
Here’s to the future bitches!