I don’t know how I manage to do this, my emotions just irritate me. Honest to god. Why can’t I go after someone I can have? You’d think that would make more sense… but noooooo, I take the route of broken hearts and bottles of jack.
Sometimes it really gets me down, you know? I mean, I know what I’m doing, and I know it’s going to hurt in the end, but I still love every moment. Each day that passes, it turns more into something I dream of. Something I want. Each day that passes gets me closer to losing it. The sad part is, is that I don’t even have the courage to say anything beyond the obvious. Yeah. Miss Sarah. The girl who never shuts up and chimes in with her opinion too much, won’t say anything. I guess I’m just scared it’ll all go away then. I don’t know. I guess I’m just stupid. Very Very Stupid Girl.
The only time I’m not thinking about the end is in the moment.
I have to say something before the end. I’ll regret it every day if I don’t.