I am super stressed out, I need a break. I need to break out of this mold I put myself in these past few weeks. Tim leaving really screwed things up, from daycare to finances to stress from dealing with Noodle. All of which has taken a toll on my mental and physical state.
I started realizing this Sunday, if not earlier. I was sitting outside in the sun, just listening to the music playing at the 619 event. I was at peace just running around with the kids, sitting in the grass, talking with my friends and relaxing. It was then that I realized exactly how stressed I am.
Then my car broke down which just added to my stress levels. As a result my Crohns and anxiety started acting up. I feel sick. Which just continues this endless circle.
So this next week and a half, through the holiday weekend, I am focusing on clearing my mind. I am focusing on me, my life and Noodle. Starting with girl time on Saturday, followed by dancing at a couple spots that night. Then a night in the city after a quick job on Thursday. The following weekend? I’m going up north to my family’s property. I plan on spending the entire weekend outside.
If this doesn’t work, I don’t know what will. :)