Ah, the “fuck off attitude”. I has it. Yes. I have been ever so politely thinking -Fuck Off, Trip, Fall and Die- to a good chunk of humanity lately. I mean it in the best possible way too, I guess it’s more of an “I’m first” type of thing. After a couple of days (weeks) of mulling this over (yes, this is why my blog posting has slowed down recently) I enacted it. I stopped worrying about pissing other people off and began to focus on “doing me”.
I have been really happy lately, for many reasons, and mostly just because life is good (minus the ever on going health issues). It got me to thinking, I’ve been pushing hard to fix everything for a long time now, and by everything I mean physical things and my fukked emotional issues. The only time things get bad is when something or someone jumps in front of me and my family in the line. I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to continue putting myself and my priorities first.
So that brings us to my (wanted) business cards. It’s not that I don’t care about other people, I’m just not letting anyone or anyone’s problems/drama/business to get in front of my life and stress me out. I love my friends, I do, I will never mind letting people vent to me, but I’ve got to take care of my body/life/family first before I go helping people out and letting people get to me.
Anytime a bit of drama has gotten near to me, the above has applied. I just end the conversation and walk away, thinking Fuck off, over there, thanks that’s great (hell, sometimes saying it). Life has been tremendously good lately (minus Crohns) and I refuse to let anything get in the way of my climbing farther up the latter. Most importantly, I’m trying my damnedest to get my Crohns Disease under control (and as of today, no such luck) and stress does not help that in the least…. so I’ve finally decided to just walk away from it all.
So on that note, I’m going to go curl up with the boy, come up with some new points for my blog on the protests, and relax.
And wish I had some vodka for this Orange Juice.
And Chicken Grease.
If you like that kind of thing.