Sitting on my couch right now, the mini-me is eating her lunch and my Dad and The Boyfriend are installing my new water heater. I can’t help but think about how lucky I am. I’m lucky because my Dad bought me a new water heater as a gift, so I wouldn’t be broke. I’m lucky that Dad and Ry are installing it for me, since I don’t think I could even lift the tank, there for saving me money in labor. I’m a hands on girl, but sometimes brute strength is essential. So instead of going broke and pulling every muscle in my body, I get to relax and listen to them chatter among themselves.
I had a little conversation with The Boyfriend last night. I told him how much I appreciate the help he’s been giving me. This house had gotten so overwhelming with all of the remodeling and cleaning on the To-Do List. Working 40+ hours a week and dealing with Crohns made the whole ordeal so incredibly daunting I damn near had an anxiety attack. Since The Boyfriend arrived and booted his way into my life he’s done nothing but help me. From painting my house to minor repairs. To ceiling fans, thermostats, and now the water heater. When he started steam cleaning the carpets (I still have carpet in the bedroom) and scrubbing cabinets last night I realized how lucky I am.
As far as I’m concerned, it takes a special someone to really see what a person needs. When I asked him why he does so much for me, the little repairs and such, he responded with “I see how much the little things make you happy.” That kind of person is someone worth holding on to. I’m very lucky I met him, much more that we’ve been able to stick it out through out all the various drama and issues thus far.
You never really know where a relationship is heading, you never really know if it’ll last. I’m not just talking about love, I’m talking about friendships. If there is one thing I’ve learned over the past handful of years is that you have to learn how to enjoy things in the moment. Make the memories that mean something, that way you’ll always have a bit of that someone in your heart (whether or not you like it). These days I surround myself with people who matter. People who show compassion, people I care about, people whom I’d go above and beyond for as well as vice versa. It’s much easier to live a happy life if you minimize the toxicity in it. It’s hard to see the negative aspects sometimes, but when you do, when you rid yourself of them, you feel a difference. Trust me.
I’m lucky enough, finally, at this point in my life, to not only have a wonderful family but a secure set of friends and a boyfriend… all of which I’d do just about anything for (sorry kids, my kidneys are MIIIINE). It took a long time to figure out who and what I needed in my life, but now? Even on the worst days, there’s warmth inside of me… instead of just regret. So I think I’m going to go make a cup of tea and watch the boys work. I hope everyone has had a great weekend so far. I’ll be back for more random writing later!
[ps. Sorry for the un-funny, not-violent, almost-profanity-free blog. Just had to get all of that crap out of my head. :)]