For some reason I’m really agitated today. I’m not even sure why, there’s nothing I can pinpoint. I’m just generally anxious and riled up, even though my “vacation” begins tonight. I feel like I should be doing something, but I have no idea what. There’s nothing that immediately needs my attention. I don’t know.
It might just be the fall season. Usually around Autumn I feel melancholy and I start getting the itch to make big changes. Except for this year, I haven’t decided on any big changes. I was thinking of school, but because of current student debt, it’ll have to wait. Other than that? I don’t know. There’s no real changes I want to make to the house until the spring, there’s nothing major with my family. I don’t know.
So it’s my vacation, or rather “stay-cation”. I took some time off of work to save what’s left of my mental health. I’m off of work until Tuesday morning. I ended up squeezing in some medical crap, but for the most part, the next 5 days are going to be about taking care of me. Tomorrow morning, I have my remicade infusion, but will be out of there around noon. Friday, I have my surgical consult, but that shouldn’t take long at all. Other than that, there’s no plans.
I’m excited, Noodle has school Thursday and Friday and then a 3 day weekend. So Thursday and Friday are days to myself. Saturday and Monday, Ryan is working, so it’s Noodle-Mama time. Sunday? Family Day. Maybe I’ll take a tour through the thrift stores, I need winter clothes. Maybe the forest preserve for writing and music? Maybe coffee with my girlfriends? Maybe a walk downtown? Who knows. Either way, it’ll be nice.
Obviously, from my level of un-called for anxiety, I need this break.