You asked why I don’t like you, but really you should ask why I don’t respect you.
I just got home, 12 hours after I left my house this morning. I have to pull some over time because we lost a girl at the office. That’s okay with me, extra cash on my paycheck never hurts, and I’m still home by dinner. I guess me and the kid are going to head into the office tomorrow so I can finish up some stuff, that way I won’t have to spend that much extra time there next week. I miss my kid during the week while she’s at school, I don’t like missing her any longer. So we have plans to hang out with her aunt tomorrow and some fun activities for Sunday as well.
I work hard at my job because I pride myself in being successful. I love my “grown-up” job because it allows me to make enough money to pay for my daughter’s school, clothes, and of course the basics. I make enough now, that with some budgeting, I can afford fun stuff and vacations. I work this hard because I like caring for my family and knowing I can provide for them, and I want to set a good example for my girl. I love my “grown-up” job because I work during her school hours and a tad bit before and after. That way she’s home with me as much as possible and we can spend time together.
I take pride in my home and in my family. The majority of my actions are involving them. I make decisions that will benefit not just me but my entire family. I believe that raising your child is supposed to be the most important job of a mother. I do my best to raise her right and be a good mother. To provide a loving, stable home in which she can thrive despite life’s obstacles.
I have worked long and hard to fix my life after I divorced my ex-husband. I worked all sorts of jobs until I found one that allowed me to spend more time with her and afford my bills at the same time. I learned how to deal with the fact that she is in school now, and I miss her dearly when she’s there. I bought and fixed up a house, and do my best to have a family dinner every night. Call me traditional, but it’s good enough for me. I went from a stay at home mom in an abusive relationship to a working mother who has found a career and is thriving.
You wonder why I don’t like you. You stand for everything I strive not to be. You are the stereotypical welfare mom. You defraud the government for more welfare by claiming people you shouldn’t and by working for cash. You work at a bar, and hang out there when you’re not working, all the while insisting that you can’t get a new job because there’s nothing out there. Right. Um retail. You really don’t have any bills since you don’t pay for food, childcare, or medical. I don’t even think you pay rent. Get a day job. You’ve been working that shit hole bar for 3 years. Time to move on. I don’t respect you because you are a poor excuse for a mom. You choose your friends and your bar-job over your son. You say “Oh he’s only with me 1 day this week” like it’s no big deal, when by friday, I miss my daughter so much by the time I pick her up from school that I want nothing more than to hug her, and I still see her every day. Your son will grow up to remember that you were not there when he needed you most. You complain when the government finally catches you ripping off welfare and blame everyone but yourself. Because obviously, since you’re a single mom, the world owes you something. You shouldn’t have to work hard to take care of your children. You shouldn’t have to work at all! You shouldn’t have to spend time with your kids, because hey, that’s what your parents are for! God forbid you use the money you *do* earn to buy your child food, when the government pays you for FREE.
So moral of the story here? Don’t tell me you know how hard it is, when you clearly don’t know. You haven’t had to raise your own child in 3 years, nor do you even pay your own bills. Once you grow up and realise that you actually have to BE there for your child, that your child ranks far over your social life, once you get a job that provides for yourself and your child, or hell even SHOW interest or LOOK…. then I might respect you.
Everyone has their low points, hell, in the past 10 years I’ve been on a got-damned rollercoaster. But you know what? I picked myself up off the ground and improved myself and my life to benefit my children. There’s nothing wrong with working at a bar, as long as you make decent money and spend time with your child. But once a week, is not it. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with going out and having fun, but if your fun DIRECTLY IMPACTS YOUR CHILD, it’s time to stop. Everyone hits a financial hard point, and some of us (myself included) have needed state aid. But it’s there for emergencies, until you improve your situation, it’s not a way of life. It’s there to help you up when you need a hand, and that’s it. When you’ve been at the same rock-bottom-point of your life for 3 years, and you don’t see a problem with it, it’s time to grow up. It’s not about you anymore, it’s about your child.
[I apologize to anyone if I offended them, this is my own personal opinion after being on both sides of the fence. I do not have respect for someone who lives on welfare for years. Nor do I have respect for parents who don’t see their children on their own choice. I don’t have respect for people who are in a shit situation but refuse to fix their lives, even worse expect other people to fix it for them. Sorry.]