I don’t know how it’s New Years Eve, I’m still trying to figure out how Thanksgiving already past and where Christmas went. For Fuck’s sake!!?! How am I 27?!? Yeah, you could say I don’t keep track of time very well. It seems like I just got my divorce and the short kid was just running around in nothing but her diaper and pigtails. I blinked and short kid was potty trained, I blinked again and I found my current job. You guessed it, I blinked again and all of a sudden I’m settled down, in a long term relationship, paying my mortgage and trying to figure out how my kid is 6 already. So it’s about to be 2014, and I’m stuck in like 2009. W.T.F.
So New Years. It’s the time of year where people make silly ass “resolutions”, (usually) unattainable goals that they set for themselves that will be abandoned after the first week of January. I’m guilty of it in years past, I’ll admit that, but it seems like as the years go on, the more I wince in regards to New Years Resolutions.
Now that’s not saying that there aren’t things I’d like to improve with myself, within my life. I just lost major interest in setting all my goals to begin on the 1st day of the year. The main reason? I learned that if you set too many, or a goal that is insanely too high for yourself, it’s so easy to abandon it. I mean, why not? I wanted to lose 41 lbs! I can just start that later… I don’t need to quit smoking, I can start that neeeeext week. You have the entire year, so why not put it off? So if there is something I want to change, I start to change it right away, otherwise I’ll just put it off.
A lot has changed these last few years. I accomplished a lot of the goals I set out for myself. The one goal, or I guess resolution that I’m working on is *better health*. I’ve been at it for a couple of months now, at least seriously anyway. Trying to eat more whole foods and less processed crap. More exercise, cut down/quit smoking, yada yada yada. That’s about it for this year. Health. This January my health insurance through work kicks in ( I can finally afford it – and not get denied ), so I will be able to see my regular doctor, gyn, and GI when I need too. Eye Exams and finally getting to the dental work I’ve put off will be getting done too. This year, just like these last few months, is dedicated to taking care of myself, more importantly setting a good example for my daughter.
Whatever. I’m going to go pour myself a glass of red wine then start dinner. These steaks won’t grill themselves. Happy New Years everyone, take it a little easier on yourselves this year and make sure you aren’t losing too much time making yourselves miserable. Good night!