I am extremely burnt out right now. My brain just doesn’t want to function anymore, it just wants to go to bed and curl up in a ball. I’ve reached the point today where thinking is taking much longer than it should. Simple problems that should be easily solved, I can’t even ponder without getting distracted. Mister Brain says it’s time to quit and go to sleep.
A good portion of it is due to work. Shit is just crazy at the moment, and I’m not sure when it’ll get better. I spent the better portion of today getting screamed at by customers and grumped at by installers. I actually cried at work today… wait for it… because I had a NICE customer who told me to stop apologizing and that she understood. Ahh, the wonders of customer service, nothing like being screamed at for 8 hours to remind you how little faith you have in humanity. So yeah, there’s that.
Then of course some negative news within the family. Negative news that makes me want to cry, and makes me remember old memories of my mother being sick. Of course that’s been lurking in the back of my head all day, as well as concern for those affected and a feeling of helplessness.
I don’t know. Thankfully things in my home are pretty calm, so I have a refuge here. I just feel like I’m stretched too thin and that I am going to snap soon. So I’m off to eat some breakfast for dinner and to curl up with some wine.