Anxiety Attacks and a Healthy Dose of Fear


It’s 2:30am and I just moved up into a room from the ER. Yup, you guessed it. Back in the hospital for Crohns related crap again.  You know, last year I made a comment somewhere along the lines of “Woohoo! I haven’t been admitted in a whole year!!”.  I’m pretty sure I jinxed myself, because here we are, second expensive sleepover thus far in 2014.

This one’s a little more than my average small bowel obstruction.  Apparently they are seeing more inflammation and maybe even a possible infection on top of a partial obstruction. Last March we had increased my Remicade and put me back on 6mp to help prevent my body from creating antibodies.  One of my GIs is concerned that despite that, Remicade may no longer work. Submitting lab tests for those antibodies tomorrow.

So I’m just stuck in this hospital limbo now until they pick a direction to get my body working again. It’s definitely weird though, I’m having such a hard time this run.  Partially due to the bad news about my health, but also because I’m on a different floor than usual. I don’t have any of my nurses or aides that I’m used to. To be completely honest, I’m having panic attacks damn near back to back. 

All I can say is I hope this hospital stay is brief and ends well.  Wish me luck.


One thought on “Anxiety Attacks and a Healthy Dose of Fear

  1. JenN-Moo

    Oh Sarah. I am sending you all the good stuff I’ve got. Is there any way to ask for the other floor? Let them know it is adversly affecting your health. Hugs.

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