I am finally relaxing. As I posted earlier, we bought a new (to us) washer, and of course I had to wash every little bit of clothes I owned. Haha, let me just nominate myself for the lame-adult-of-the-year award. The kid and I colored with some chalk, and after her bath, we made a pizza. Thursday nights we usually do a one on one dinner, which she gets a kick out of. Always nice to actually get some alone time with the kid and talk with her. She’s a really bright kid, and the conversations we have always amaze me. We talked today about money (and how things cost money so we have to save for bigger purchases) and about camp and what she likes about it so far. I’m pretty impressed with my little one.
It’s almost Friday thank God. It’s been a long couple of weeks. Work has just been crazy, with the exception of today, and with the fight with my family member, it’s been pretty high stress. Now that everything is over, my anxiety has calmed down.
I’m finally getting caught up on some work that I fell behind on with my day off on Tuesday, and I feel like I actually got something accomplished. I’m very numbers driven, so being able to see what I’ve done each day really helps. Hopefully things continue to calm down at work, I’m starting to feel a bit burnt out with everything. I just keep reminding myself that it’s the season… as a coworker says, it seems like everything implodes in the summertime.
As for the fight with my family member. I was able to text what I really wanted to say, (once I wasn’t so angry, just hurt) and for once I wasn’t interrupted. I hope that she read it and took it to heart. I haven’t heard from her since and I noticed that she blocked me on Facebook. That’s fine I guess. After talking with my Dad, and then with the boyfriend, I’ve definitely made the decision to cut ties. If she hadn’t said certain things I might have let it blown over, but unfortunately once words leave your mouth, it can’t be unsaid. Frankly, even if I did change my mind, I don’t think the boyfriend will… from what I understand his family is pretty upset too. It looks like with a couple of hurtful comments, a wedge may have been driven between the two families. Sad. Like I was saying, I’m glad it’s over. I’m slightly upset still, but mostly relieved. I was able to say what I’ve been wanting to say for months, and I found out how she really feels about my disease/job/family/life. So not only did I get what I needed to off my chest, but I was able to inadvertently find out who is toxic to me and who I need to keep away from my kiddo. It’s odd, I feel in a way… lighter.
Beyond all that, I’m just doing the thing. I’ve been feeling pretty run down lately, but I honestly think it’s mostly stress (which hopefully should lessen now) and oddly enough, dehydration. It’s been pretty warm here, and with being sick, I get pretty dehydrated pretty fast. So water and tea it is! It looks like the weather should be cooling down here soon, so forest preserve trips are coming and I think I’m going to finally sign up for a yoga class or something. I haven’t decided which one, but I think it would be a good (natural) way to bring down my anxiety. Plus the benefits! The only other thing that’s on my “personal-for-me-to-do-list” is looking into a bicycle. I really want a beach cruiser and have for years, but you know how it goes, there’s always another place that money could go. So I’m going to start saving up a portion of my savings (haha) to put down on a bike, since the kid has learned how to ride her bike good now, I want to be able to go on bike rides with her. So wish me luck!
Anyway, this turned into more of a journal post than I wanted, but I didn’t feel like writing in my physical journal. My kiddo has fallen asleep on her chapter book, so it’s time to get her in bed. Happy Friday everyone!