It’s been a loooong road.


I’ve been absent lately from the internet world.  The real world has been moving almost too fast for me to keep up, so I’ve been lacking in the posts as well as on Facebook and Twitter.  I’ve been even worse off at reading other people’s blogs, for which I sincerely apologize.  Life has been good though, just busy, as in super insane busy.  Honestly though, I like it when life is busy, it keeps me pushing forward and striving to meet new goals.  As always, the one thing that doesn’t change, I manage life’s problems and achieve my goals quicker if I have too much on my plate at once.  I don’t think that’ll ever change, some call it ADHD, some call it over-achieving… I call it Fuck-You-Life-I-Win.

So my little Buddha Butt had her birthday come and go, and let me tell you did this little girl get spoiled.  It looked (looks) like Hello Kitty puked in my house.  From lunchboxes to barrettes to stickers to outfits.  Helllllo Kitty.  Good Lord.  She got a new Easel from Beckie and her daughter Izzy, which she can now use with all her new art supplies (thanks Beck!).  And of course she got a new swim suit for our trip to the lake house… and got a kick out of wearing her life preserver.


The lake house was a welcome vacation, granted we only went for 3 days this time, and we’ll be going back a lot this summer, it was just needed.  3 days with my family made it all worth while.  I was getting a little overwhelmed with work, bills, and just general adult crap, so I enjoyed it.  I enjoyed spending time with my Dad even more.  I’m glad he finally has a piece of paradise, after all these years, he deserves it.  Seeing him happy, even if his happiness was chasing us on a jetski and laughing when I was thrown off, makes me happy.

Things with the house are really coming together.  We’ve got everything unpacked and organized to our liking.  Both kid’s rooms are set up and our room is almost done too.  Ryan has been working like crazy (when he’s not at actual work) on the yard and it’s looking really nice.  I’ve always been an outside-person, I’d much rather sit in my yard than inside the house.  Now?  I can look at a well-manicured lawn complete with all of my flowers (both old that he resurrected and new plants) and relax.  The house is feeling more like a home every day, especially since I’ve been filling it with people I love.

Life is good, busy but good.  My one goal though?  Work on my writing more, I’ve been writing like crazy in my physical journal, but I want to get on this blog better.  Especially at the current politics rolling around [Insert Evil Cackle Here].  Plus, now that evenings are calming down, I want to read more.  So I’ll be around you guys.  I’m back. :)



In Five Years


My little one turns five today, she’s already graduated preschool and is enrolled in kindergarten.  My little one hand bunk beds and play-make up, my little one wants to learn how to ride a bike and be able to fix it too.  My little one is five.  Time really does fly, it does.  It seems like just yesterday she was running around my house in  a diaper.  I could have sworn it was just last week that we took down her crib.  Where the hell does the time go?  As she gets older, I try harder to hold on to each day, to make it last as long as possible… but regardless before I know it, she’ll be all grown up.

I have to give it to her, she’s had a hard five years.  When she was born, I got sick and years after discovered I had Crohns Disease.  She had to spend her first couple years thinking it was okay for Daddy to yell at Mommy, it was okay for Daddy to hit mommy.  She then had to deal with Daddy moving out and then not too long after she had to deal with “Daddy moving away to work” and then never hearing from him again.  She had to transition from having a stay at home mom to a full-time working mom and start daycare.  Now that life is improving she is learning how to not be the only child.

There’s one thing to be said about my child, she is a strong little girl.  Despite all the turbulence at home thanks to myself being sick and her Dad being… well… a dead beat dad, she’s thrived.  She’s done really well in school and is picking up things really quick.  Despite some tantrums ( I think due to all of the change in the house as well as changing classrooms and teachers at school) she’s been doing really well.  I’m proud of my little girl, I’m proud of her manners and how caring she is.  I’m proud of how kind she can be and how loving she is.  I’m a proud mama.

So today, she is 5.  She is a bigger little girl.  This year, we have a lot planned for her birthday.  We’ve split up her birthday to 2 days this weekend and all next weekend.  Ryan is working today so I planned out today as just her and I.  Unfortunately we have a dentist appointment at noon (opps, bad scheduling on my part), but after that she made a request to go shoe shopping.  After that her best friend Izzy is coming over to bring her her presents and have a play date.  The neighbors are coming over too to celebrate.  Then of course, tonight she gets to open her presents from me.  Tomorrow?  Tomorrow we are going to the park, and after Ryan gets home from work, we’re doing the birthday cake thing, followed by opening her presents from Him and our joint presents.  Some time this weekend, Kate will be coming over to give her her presents too.

The big things we’re doing?  Well, we aren’t having a “real” party this weekend, people are just coming and going, so I wanted something special.  So next weekend, we are all going up to the Lake House to celebrate her birthday with my Dad.  We’re leaving early Friday morning and staying until Sunday evening.  It’s all Noodle can talk about, seeing her Grandpa and “Driving the Boat” (she gets to steer the pontoon boat).  She’s excited… a weekend swimming and playing in the sand… and hopefully I can get her to come out on the jetski this time.  :)  I’m almost as excited as she is.  The first vacation (out of many) this summer.  It’s time for some family time as well as a break.  :)


Happy Birthday to my little girl.  My Noodle. :)