I’ve been avoiding writing here because everything is just so bleak.

Covid-19 has killed 237k+ people in the United States, and Americans are still complaining about having to wear a mask and not being able to go out to dinner when cases are soaring.. again.

We made it through the election.. kind of. Biden barely won, barely, and Trump is contesting every negative vote count claiming that he won the election. Who knows what will happen when Biden is supposed to take office in January.

Protests against Police Brutality are still happening, but the media and vast amount of Americans do not care.. especially now that Biden has “won” the election. Despite the fact that Biden’s legislation is what set all of this into motion, people seem to think that just because he won an election, police brutality is solved.

There’s not much to update beyond that on a national, newsworthy level.

In my personal life? It’s been a rocky run lately. On the lighter side of that, I started a new job recently, and I’m very grateful for the income. My family is healthy and we have a roof over our heads. That’s good enough for now.

Take care everyone.

Everything is on Fire


This country disgusts me. So do the majority of it’s citizens. I don’t even know where to begin to be completely honest, there’s so much trash right now I just can’t process half of it. I’m disgusted and appalled at family as well as friends, and if I distance myself any more than I already have, I might as well just move to the woods and never see another soul beyond my immediate family ever again.

Covid-19 is still around, which isn’t surprising in the least considering that Americans refuse to wear masks, and sue our governors so they can go and eat at Applebees. We now have over 6 million cases, and more than 186k people have died. We’re projected to hit over 400k deaths in 4 months if Americans can’t manage to wear a mask and wash our hands, and yet people, people I know don’t believe in it or think it’s all scare tactics. Worse? They still parrot the “well, it kills the sick and elderly, so we shouldn’t have to lock down and wear masks.” 180k deaths, and people are still parroting that. It’s really something else to see people you know exclaiming that no one should mask up because people like you and your daughter will die.

Protests against police brutality and racism are still going strong. Places like Portland are well over 100 days into it, and it’s now local as well. Kenosha WI PD shot a man in the back numerous times bringing protests home. The man, Jacob Blake survived somehow. Protests started up immediately, which I whole heartedly support, but the Right & Far Right found a champion which makes me want to vomit.

Kyle Rittenhouse, a 17 year old from Antioch took a rifle that he was too young to have up to the Kenosha protests and murdered two people and severely injured another. He was arrested and charged, the next day, as he went to turn himself in and the police ignored him so he went home. It’s all on video, and yet Conservative Christians and Republicans have some how found a way to rally around him. They call him a patriot, and have raised a large amount of money to pay for his defense. His own lawyer says that he started the new revolution and parrots the patriot garbage.

The protests will continue, as they should as the police have been brutalizing people across the country for using their constitutional rights. Between police shooting people in the head, beating them on live streams and Trump voicing support for Kyle Rittenhouse and Alt-Right Militias, it all seems so hopeless.

All I can do is continue keeping in touch with my immediate community and voice my support for those on the front lines (as my chronic illnesses don’t allow for much else lately). The last few months however, have left such horror and disgust, I’m not sure that it will get better regardless of whether or not Trump stays in office. I do know however that a line has been drawn in the sand, we’ll be in the history books, and more than half of this country will not be on the right side.

Pandemics, Primaries, Economic Collapse & Springtime


Things have changed so much in the last year and more importantly, things will never be the same. I thought about it for a while, and decided that it seemed right to archive my previous posts. While a lot of them were still relevant, they seemed so.. distant, and I just wanted a fresh start.

April 2020. Four months into the year and it feels like we’re four YEARS in. We’re currently under a “Stay at Home Order” and have been for a couple of weeks because of the Covid-19 pandemic. It’s a respiratory virus from the SARS family that has been spreading like mad.

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Because the majority of our country and most of the world is quarantining, the economy is suffering. 6.6 million Americans filed for unemployment just last week since most stores, restaurants and the rest of the economy has closed down.

Predictably, our government under the Trump administration has fumbled the pandemic response. Hospitals are overwhelmed, trust in the government is low, and fear is skyrocketing. Trump himself is all over the place, his twitter is a minefield of dementia riddled attacks on everyone from the press to senators to governors to other countries. His comments and actions (golf trips) on the virus itself show how unprepared he is for a crisis of this magnitude.


Needless to say, he’s here to stay. Bernie Sanders has dropped out of the race for president. So our lovely two-party system has decided that our choices yet again are Democrat or Republican, Joe Biden or Donald Trump. Unfortunately Joe Biden has a very problematic history including but not limited to racism, homophobia, and rape. Ironically so does Donald Trump. So, I guess it’s just more of the same.

I haven’t quite processed all of my feelings on all of this yet, so that’ll be a post on another day. Beware though, you probably won’t like what you read.