It’s another glorious morning where I woke up earlier than I planned and could not get back to sleep. It’s one of the most frustrating things for me, I feel constantly fatigued, yet I can’t seem to sleep enough or sleep through the time I wake during the week. All of which leads to a solid hour of me being grumpy and refusing to do anything short of hovering over my coffee.
I think whether or not I’m a morning person depends on the seasons. If it’s spring or summer, I don’t mind waking up at the crack of dawn. “It’s nice out! Everyone’s sleeping, so why not go read a book on the deck with a cup of coffee?” Winter? “Oh, everyone’s still asleep… I can wake up and stay inside… again.” No thanks. I’m just tired of the cold weather, I’m tired of being cooped up inside with a kid and two dogs who have been saving all their energy for MONTHS. I think we’re all going to explode if the weather doesn’t improve here, hell, I’ve decided I’m going to move to somewhere south if it snows on my birthday this year.
Blech. By the way, if you’re not adding a tone of disdain and annoyance to this entry, you’re reading it wrong.
Moving on. I’m feeling a bit better. I can eat pretty much normally now even though I will now be avoiding the majority of raw veggies and anything with a lot of fatty content and such. Must prevent more obstructions – if I’m going to be obstructed, it’ll be because my body hates me, not because I ate nothing but salad for 2 days. Oy. I’m glad to be up and running again, though I am putting extra effort into not thinking about my medications too much. I’m still not pleased about going back on 6mp, but I don’t want to lose Remicade. If I can milk it for all it’s worth, then I guess it’s worth a shot. I’m making a solid attempt at keeping my stress levels down as well, although that’s proving quite hard with work. Nothing like a 12 hour day to ratchet up that blood pressure!
I’ve spent the last few days basically reassessing my day to day activities. I’m slowing making little changes here and there that I think could help my stress levels. Just little things, like pulling out clothes the night before, pre-packing lunches and taking time to just breathe and calm my head down. Diets changing of course, on top of removing the Not-Crohns-Friendly things, I’m eliminating a lot of other crap. This winter I feel into a cycle of convenience, gone were a good chuck of “from scratch” meals and healthy snacks. It is so much easier to just eat a meal out of a box and open a bag of chips. I know that has a lot to do with me feeling like crap, so back to it we go. (Which re-routes my thinking to – I can’t wait to plant the garden this year – to – GOD DAMNIT ITS STILL WINTER!!) So far though I’ve noticed my body responding better after just a few days, so I’m going to keep on trucking down this “no processed foods” road and see how it works.
In the real world though, I need to shower and get some chores done. Not to mention my coffee cup is empty. Have a great Saturday everyone.